A bad of sorrys'
HEY. I KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE IN MIND. But I will be back okay. I don't know when But I promise I WILL
I know Red Bites had been sleeping for too many hours in winter wonderland. I do not actually have much of the practice to blog when I do have pictures to share with. Either they are short or just some notification. For today, lemme break the rules.
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After lunch with Dear today, I cannot somehow think of where to go as there is class at 2pm. He wouldn’t like malls (so as I cause my leg is aching), so I think of maybe some nice garden where we can really rest in the car. For God’s sake We Both are darn tired!
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Just thought of Youth Park/Botanical Garden. Somehow we came to a Batik House shop nearby and there is this spacious car park with tree shades and it was raining! How comfy would it felt right?
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As he turns off the engine and wind down the windows, he seems a lil’ frustrated/disturbed with the whole idea.
‘Why come to this place and rest? Haiyo’
‘I thought that we both would be tired and can take a good rest. Don’t expect me to voice out Shopping Malls do you?’
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As we both rest, joked, chatted and play some funny thumb and tickling games, as I lie on his shoulder wrapped by his arms, I felt a sigh from him and I at most felt that hug seems to be more precious than ever.
‘Honey, I wouldn’t be able to accompany you everyday anymore starting next month. I got some problems in the company. If you finish class early, do just go back home by then. I have a ton heart if I just leave you alone in college. Seriously when I bring you to work, it is a difficult task for me and my workers. When I have to accompany you during break time, I can’t really do my work although I am the one who sets the system in company’
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He told me every crisis he is facing and tough situations.
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‘It’s okay dear. I understand. I did tell you before if you are busy or have any assignments, don’t mid doing your work. I am fine in college for many friends are there. I know that I give you trouble. I didn’t mean to. I don’t mind following you and the entire time we go for work and to constructions although sometimes I have some plan. I really don’t! All it matters is as long I get to see you, know whether is everything alright, I am happy and have not much say. This means you can only see me once a week?”
‘No Dear. Who says once a week? I can see you every night or bring you for dinner. Or come to your house just to see you. Do promise me that you will go back early when you don’t have class.’
‘Okay’
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My tears trickled. I hugged him tighter and try to stay strong. I don’t mind that he can’t accompany me during weekdays or daytime for I know our love will be stronger each day. It is just that all this while I get to see him, know what he is up to, what is happening around him and what problem is he facing.
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I finally learnt that sometimes it is hard for a person to fully focus on more than one thing. If you choose this, the other has to loose out abit and vice versa. For this, I also learn how to sacrifice some feelings for only one reason. I Love Him and I wanted him to do what he suppose to do.
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If this happened, I can’t see what is going on! I wouldn’t know if he faces problem in work, I wouldn’t know will be go back to his drinking and smoking habits, I don’t know who is contacting him, I don’t know anything! SHIT ME I HATE TO BE THE LAST TO KNOW! I have no idea why I am typing with anger, but tears in my eyes.
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But I trust him. Very much. So, don’t make me loose my trust k Dear? I am smart enough to know if anything tipsy which you didn’t tell me. I know you don’t wanna make me worry but who am I to you? I suppose to know what is going on. Let’s make it a habit J
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Still the same, no flirting, no checkin’ out chicks, no smoking, no beers, and do tell me what you should tell! Or not, I will sakai you!!!!!
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Still, I love you honey! :P hehe
OH NO!! It's assaaiments again!! Great lah! This is why I don't get enough sleep! Moreover tomorrow night got practice for dance at Christine hse! SG ARA! (wait..where is that?i need to google map)
Is it my day or I am being materialized? First of all, shitty things happened to one of my ear piercings. THE 3rd HOLE! I was using stainless steel ring and it all went well, untill there is this swollen bump which its size cannot seems to dilate. Did some research last night and realized it's a kind of infection! It happens when you got your piercings through your cartilage. People like me ain't lucky always. So I either had to seek for medical treatment or become the doctor myself.
